on the precipice of change

Feeling stagnant is something that ranks on my top 5 hated feelings. I feel stagnant, but the stagnancy also creates an attitude of quiet desperation and being overwhelmed, so the cycle becomes vicious.  I have struggled with that feeling on and off for quite awhile. Thankfully, whether I'm ready or not the proverbial winds of change are approaching. My jaded and scarred over heart is forcing itself to shed the layers of survival mode apathy and it's ready climb right back in it's rightful spot...my sleeve.  Where it used to live.  Where it belongs.